FINLAND OR TANZANIA?!
Have you ever moved out of Finland or considered moving? It is very difficult to make the decision. I thought I already made it. I really, really want to go. This country makes me sick at the moment. We are sending kids to die in Afghanistan, Iraq, Somalia. We are treating people of different colour so much worse than us white, privileged people, that I cannot breath here. This is simply not something I can live with, my soul is dying!
And in the midst of this pondering I met a taxi driver from Burundi yesterday. In Helsinki. (Greetings to brother Jean! Asante kwa kila kitu, kakangu, kweli kabisa!) He, out of all people, was the one who I asked, whether I should stay in Finland or not.
"Why do you stay here?!" I almost screamed at him.
"It is a tough question... I don't know... Because of my family", he replied.
I am so screwed. I do not know what to do. I will miss my family so much. But I have family in Tanzania, too. What to do? Where to live?
I am lost. God, show me the way.
Thank God, my mother prays. She is the one whose prayers have carried me this far. Now I will ask her to pray just a little bit more.
And in the meantime I need your help. What on Earth should I do...? And why?
And if you are staying in Finland, what on EARTH makes you stay?
No nyt se ei enää olekaan varma. Eikä pidä siitäkään, että afro haluaa olla Suomessa.